| one-sided affliction |
[Apr. 5th, 2005|05:25 am] |
if i stretch my arms far enough could they reach you
and fix what fell apart this time
i know i said some things assumed some things
but now it's too late to take it back
and you don't see me or my point of view or you
i guess i'll never really know
it's when i start to care that i should remember that it's time
to run away so i don't lose me
i split open in front of you but my layers are thick
and you only see the damaged skin
do i regret that i met you?
only because the tables have turned over
do i wish i'd forget you
i guess i'll never know
when to hold on or to let go
i could put your picture on the wall
but it wouldn't make you see me
hear me need me
this one-sided affliction has got me
keeled over
over and over
is it over? |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 11th, 2004|11:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | grendel - noisome | ] |
i am becoming delirious from taking a sleeping pill. i am so looking forward to getting a deep peaceful rest tonight. i rarely sleep well.
weekend was pretty fun. friday night went to skully's to see cruciform injection, cesium:137 & dismantled.
was a good time! not a whole lot of people showed up so it was pretty relaxed and people just enjoying themselves. it's so nice to go to shows occasionally that aren't packed with people. i'm a bit crowd/people phobic. i saw a livejournal friend there, yay :) and talked a bit with an adorable boy, jimie. he was sweet.
had to work saturday. then i stayed up all night and played around a bit on THERE.COM.
i have to work the next few days. i have cramps and will be all bitchy at work. GRRR, oh well ;p
i need to play musically instruments. i needs ta dye my hair soon, it's fading way too fast now.
end of august my friend tom and i are going to niagara falls & toronto :D there is a horror convention, festival of fear i think it's called aug 27-29th, so we are going to go to at least a day of that. then bop around toronto and niagara doing random whateverness, and maybe meeting up with other people i know from online too if possible! let me know if you want to :)
sorry if i am not making sense, i'm half asleep. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 11th, 2004|08:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the lovemakers - dance | ] |
if everything was beautiful in our eyes and we were always happy wouldn't even happiness become boring and monotonous
pain and heartbreak hurt but at least they shake things up let you know you're still breathing
i forget sometimes
i need to make a reminder list to put on my wall:
1.desire is poison
2. breathe
3. let go
4. the measure of beauty is vast
5. if you're bored you're boring
i am tired and my thoughts are all over the place jumping along the bars like notes in a song
transmission interpret. //unable to access. //delete |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 19th, 2004|04:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the stills - still in love song | ] |
i am flat broke. lost my job recently. i don't even have money for food, or won't in the next couple of days anyway. my my, do things suck right now.
the + a few shows, and a vacation coming up. but i'm dying in the meanwhile.
oh she's so dramatic, here's the shotgun. |
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| b-r0k3-n |
[Feb. 4th, 2004|04:51 am] |
i felt a need to post this quiz, for it describes me very well.
Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 31st, 2004|12:17 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | inkubus sukkubus - vampyre erotica | ] |
Your soul is bound to the Rose Petals: The
Wronged.
"'ve come undone and all hopes of mending
me are gone because the pain took my soul.
Can't you see? The only one who can put me
back together again is me."
The Rose Petals are associated with sorrow,
reflection, and wisdom. They are governed by
the goddess Persephone and their sign is The
Teardrop, or Broken Love.
As a Rose Petal, you are always self-reflective and
may be hard on yourself. You probably have
been hurt in the past by other people and can
sometimes distance yourself, as a result. You
don't usually let other get too close to you,
but you are very good at mending your spirits
back together by yourself.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla |
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| sally hellraiser |
[Nov. 22nd, 2003|03:39 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the faint - glass danse | ] |
she's got her mouth sewn shut
bloody stitches
it really hurts when she tries to talk
so she speaks silently
with her eyes
crying out desperately
pins sticking in and out of her head
is she alive or is she dead
she wonders frequently
painted into a broken doll
by a world of cruelty
no more body for support
just a head
she sits and stares
pull off her tie
dolly it's time to die
die die die
sally stitches is a made up creation
a shattered girl
mutant fascination
kiss her quick and get stuck
to stitchy lips
give her some needle and thread
you can try to fix her
but after all she's only a head |
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| splinters |
[Nov. 22nd, 2003|02:12 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | holly mc narland - do you get high? | ] |
the devil's in my dress and i must confess i wanna take it off
there's bruises on my ring finger
you're there and you're gone
and now you just don't fit anymore
bound to a spiral heart of lies
getting off on your reflection
i want your double
that empty stare
soulless
no regret |
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| ju$t.$@y.gl0. |
[Nov. 22nd, 2003|02:00 am] |
she's got poison flowing through her veins
pulsating neon green uv reactive
she dances across the club floor and everyone stares
life glows through her light shines in her
she will be the new addition to addiction
miss ultra violet fad |
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| creepster cuties |
[Nov. 22nd, 2003|01:45 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  creative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | neurotic fish - need | ] |
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